A woman walks along the beach.
She is surrounded by film crews.
A camera captures her.
She is an actress.
She plays various roles by wearing her different masks one by one.
She brings them to life as if she were on imaginary journeys.
Then, what is her real face under those masks like? Where is she actually hidden?
Her depressed profile, waiting for her boyfriend in the long afternoon.
Her innocent face on her affable friend.
Her eyes with fear at security cameras.
Or, her appearance on the screen...
She exists in all of them, but then she doesn’t at the same time.
When the clear identity of “I” becomes unstable,
the reality falls apart and it is rebuilt as a fiction through a camera lens.
Thus, a film has been made.
“I” exists anytime; in the childhood, yesterday, now etc.
Although those “I” are not precisely the same being, we naturally can gather and connect all of them into a single “I”. This means that we all create a story of a chronological “I” based on the vision/ideology that each of us has to interpret ourselves as meaningful individuals. Paul Ricoeur said we need to create narratives so that we can accept our own identity and give order and meanings to the reality.
For example, it is said that identity crisis frequently happens when the previous sense of value is shaken greatly in situations such as a social system change or large-scale disasters.
If so, we are creating fiction of a hero “I” in our mind every day, which is like a film editing process as if to put irrelevant film pieces together to create something meaningful.
Moreover, we can’t see things or listen through other people’s eyes or ears. We all feel/imagine things differently even when listening to the same music. And that can mean that each of us lives in each own original world related to each recognition/experience which cannot be shared with other people.
Meanwhile, this world exists for other people, too.
We all play various parts such as a family member or a friend according to the circumstances, and “I” exists as the whole of those parts.
Even though we ask ourselves “Who am I?” without considering the relation with other people, it would end up with being just a subjective self-evaluation and preconception, and that would make our existence vaguer in the modern world in which the connection between the society and ourselves is slighter than ever.
Considering those ideas, this film was created with the motif of “The difficulty of understanding each other”. The overall focus as a creator was on stimulating the imagination of audience rather than trying to gain their sympathy. Films are media not just to express some selfish ideas. They can let imaginative opinions of audience emerge freely instead of fixing meanings or installing creator’s answer by enlightening ways. Then, audience can create and rebuild meanings through the pieces of a creator. It is that place that we see a possibility to make an interactive relation between a creator and audience.
Shiho Tanaka as the woman
Atsushi Oda as the director
Yoshiko Tatsumi as the producer
Yuki Tamura as the boyfriend
Ayaka Takezaki as the friend
Tomoyasu Machiya as the star
Hibiki Yamamura as the father
Miwako Izumi as the mother
Mutsumi Suzuki as the sister
Shingo Matsuoka as the crowd
Kosuke Fujita as the bouncer
Shunichiro Kishiro as the Cinematographer
Takushi Ueta was born in Japan in 1980.
He was inspired by "LePetit Soldat" when he watched it at a theater by chance in the end of his teenage era. Since then, movies have been the center of his life and he naturally became to aspire to be a filmmaker.
He went to a film school after he moved to Tokyo, however, he learned how to make movies mainly by watching movies. While he started making independent films, he also kept writing his own scripts.
In 2020, he has completed making his first feature film “Thou’lt look back no more; never ,never, never, never, never."